Today is Sept 11, 2009. I am supposed to pick 12 women who have touched my life.  I think that if this group of women were ever to be in a room together, there is nothing that would be impossible. I hope I chose the right twelve. My love, gestures and communications hopefully remind you how special you are.
 
"May there be peace within. May you trust that you are exactly where you are meant to be. May you not forget the infinite possibilities that are born of faith in yourself and others. May you use the gifts that you have received, and pass on the love that has been given to you. May you be content with yourself just the way you are. Let this knowledge settle into your bones, and allow your soul the freedom to sing, dance, praise and love. It is there for each and every one of us."

Ever since Carrie and I went to the US for school, it has become more and more rare that the 4 of us spend time together.  Even by the end of the month, I will be in San Francisco, my sister will be in Baltimore, and my parents will be in Toronto.  But luckily, we make an effort every summer to have a short family vacation together.  :) Even if it is only for a couple days, I treasure the happy times that my family can be all together. :)

-  2 projects
-  4 finals
-  still looking for housing (SF)
-  Carrie's back home
-  going to a wedding
-  cleaning the house
-  looking for housing (Toronto)
-  family vacation to Niagara
-  spending time with family 
-  spending time with my homework
-  spending time with friends
-  summer reunions and farewells
-  working at the Learning Centre
-  Carrie to Johns Hopkins
-  school till Aug 20
-  packing
-  leaving for San Francisco Aug 22
-  Start school Aug 24

and that's my August in a nutshell

so i was talking to my gor and told him about something i was upset over.  and then he sent me an email saying the following:

"Somebody should send you this toaster.  So that next time I visit you and you feel upset, you can go into the kitchen and make me a sandwich.  And that should make you feel better.  :)  right?"





hahaha..wow. stupid but definitely cheered me up. thanks gor~
actually this toaster is kinda cool. haha

looking back on previous xanga posts, the recent ones have been pretty negative. guess there is so much going on, so much uncertainty in my life right now, that i use xanga as a place to vent.

this week has been very stressful to the point that i was getting sick physically cuz of it. too much to think about + uncertainty + school + tired +more to think about + tired + fustration+  getting behind in school is definitely not a pretty combo. a friend back in town asked me i was going to fellowship on fri. i didn't really want to go cuz i was in my "crawl into a hole" mode, but b/c she wanted to go, i reluctantly went too. fellowship started late that day, so i arrived "on time" despite my slow actions. the first song they sang really touched me. its called "當你走到無力"   and it really hit home for me. 

當你走到無力繼續下去
當你感到寂寞困惱空虛
只要相信神隨時扶助你
願助你解開困惑拋開痛悲

當你跑到疲乏難再下去
當你感到疑惑說我是誰
只要相信神完全明白你
就讓你伸手接受他深愛你

別害怕他知你難受
擔當軟弱與困憂
不需再懼怕
耶穌必拯救
願你開口接受　張開你手

別害怕他知你難受
擔當軟弱與困憂
不需再懼怕
耶穌必拯救
讓你一生快樂展翅高飛
一個全新的你

strange how my friend asked me to go (or i wouldn't have gone), strange how fellowship started late (or i would of missed this song).  this song is very touching and reminds me that when i feel so overwhelmed that i can't even understand my emotions and situation, God is there understanding 100% and I have nothing to fear .

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yay for visitors to Toronto~~ Thanks Ray and Charmine for coming to visit this week!